As I look back through the years I see everything thats wrong,
Compared to what I thought my life would be.
Ive been up and been knocked down, Ive been lost but still Ive found,
That through it all the thing Ive always had was me.
I made a vow, I said "I do", I thought for sure wed see
But apparently she didnt feel the same.
She took my house, she took my car, but what hurt the most by far,
Was the day that she gave me back my name.
Ive been addicted, Ive been drugged, I lived a secret life
Ive done things that to this day I wont admit.
Ive lost it all...lived on the street, I thought for sure that Id been beat,
Still something inside me wouldnt let me quit.
I felt the joy as I heard her say, "You have a daughter on the
I thought my dreams had finally come around.
I had no way of knowing then that in two years shed be gone again,
Now my daughters living in another town.
Well now Ive found another love and I thank the Lord above,
I pray each night that things work out this time.
I see my daughter once a year, when she leaves I fight the tears,
And try to hold on to whats left of my mind.
Still my tale is far from over, I know my journey has just begun.
I somehow hope that everyone will see.
That the reason Im still here, despite the heartaches and the tears,
Is that through it all I never let go of me.
by Rusty Black
Copyrightę1999 Rusty Black